Confidence Without Faking It

“People ask me all the time why I’m so confident,” two of my favorite YouTubers said in their videos about confidence. “It may sound common, but it’s true that you can fake it until you make it.” I stop watching, because something in me aches. I know how to fake confidence, and it works great… Read More »

Loyalty is Overrated.

“People always leave me, so I’m not worth being loved.” They say it in a moment of honesty, after we’ve been talking for a while. It’s always a one-on-one conversation. I interrogate people, and I’ve heard more people tell me this than I can remember. My instinctive response to “Everyone leaves,” is to say, “Well,… Read More »

Best of 2014

When I’m not graphically retelling dramas from my life or talking philosophy and theology, apparently I also give good recommendations over here at Insights on Epic Living. That’s what people say, ohh ohh…thank you for your music, 2014. Best Music At the beginning of the year, I’d just colored a streak of my hair, inspired… Read More »

Identifying Manipulative Abuse Tactics

Trigger warning: homophobia, manipulation, abuse Manipulative abusers can be anyone, especially trusted people. This is a longer post than usual because I want to provide a comprehensive source for what a conversation with an abuser looks like. I have multiple examples of conversations like this one, but this argument is ideal because it took place… Read More »

Good and Bad Years

I just published a YouTube video called “Good and Bad Years.” In my experience, people who read blogs aren’t always the same types of people who watch videos. Also, people who watch videos don’t always read blogs. So if you don’t want to spend seven minutes looking at my face, here’s what you missed in… Read More »

Betrayal and Conviction

On Christmas Eve, two years ago, God told me to wash my family’s feet. I hate saying that God told me to do things. There are days when I don’t believe myself. There are days when I think it’d be easier to just say it never happened, and to stop trying to believe in God… Read More »

Freeing Self-Deceived Fundamentalists

Trigger warnings: Christian martyr culture, child abuse “Maybe I’m mistaken, expecting you to fight Or maybe I’m just crazy, I don’t know wrong from right But while I am still living, I’ve just got this to say It’s always up to you if you want to be that want to see that want to see… Read More »

Those Who Wish to Seem

“Cast in this unlikely role Ill-equipped to act With insufficient tact One must put up barriers To keep oneself intact” -Rush Each time I try to write about my father, I pick up the post and leave it alone for a while. Perhaps that’s because my dad and I were pals for so many years.… Read More »

‘She Doesn’t Smile Much’

“So tiny dancer, beware – we’re medicated and scared This smile is so hard to wear So turn away from the ones who hurt everyone I can tell by your smile you’re coming undone And you’re fading with every day… There’s so much left in the air, So much to tell from your stare.” -Seether… Read More »