Guys, I’m happy. Usually on my birthdays, I slip into an introspective, rather melancholy, thoughtfulness about life. Something in my mindset changed in the past year: I don’t think about dying young anymore. I still live each day as if it will be my last. But I don’t imagine some kind of heroic, tragic end so often. […]
Author: cynthiajeub
A Lesson in Jam Writing
I’m heading up my writer’s group for the first time, and I had to lead a discussion last week. My theme: discovering the subconscious. I taught my friends a few things I’d learned about waking up my imagination before trying to describe a vivid scene, and then we practiced jam writing. My friend Evelyn, who […]
Sinners in the hands of an angry church
Repost: originally published June 22, 2013. I no longer believe in God but this post remains important. Earlier this week, a ministry of gigantic proportions shut itself down. Exodus International was known for decades as the most prominent “ex-gay” organization in the nation. This meant they tried to make gay people become straight with counseling […]
Why All Writers Should Study Screenwriting
Originally posted June 11, 2013 There is one reason my entire blog isn’t film reviews and articles of me being a movie snob: I don’t like it when people criticize an industry they have no experience in. It makes them look really stupid when they inevitably do a few of the things they once claimed […]
When the Heart Forces a Smile
This post was originally published October 5, 2012. For an update on how I feel about Christianity now, see the post “When God Spoke to Me.” This is part of the archive restoration project. From a young age, my mom taught me to force a smile when I don’t feel like it. She explained in simple […]
Birthday Post
While most of my restored archive posts came through Free Jinger and the WayBack Machine, not all of those were saved. This post is back online for the first time since 2016. I’ve also added some notes, six years later, in brackets. A few weeks ago, an unexpected fire put my family on pre-evacuation. This […]
The Twice-Removed Desire
This post was originally published June 22, 2012. For an update on how I feel about Christianity now, see the post “When God Spoke to Me.” This is part of the archive restoration project. Several years ago, I wanted to want to care about following God. I didn’t care about following God, and I didn’t […]
Two Obstacles to being a Selfless Steward
This post was re-uploaded in 2019 as part of the Archive Restoration Project. I think it shows how deeply I was attached to the idea of martyrdom seven years ago. In response to my post on being unattached to material things, I received the following comment: “I fully understand that all things belong to God, and it […]
Huck’s Lesson: Twisted Perception
The following was originally posted May 2, 2012. It was part of a two-part series, the second of which was lost. While I am no longer a Christian and I don’t use the N-word anymore even in quotations, I like this post because it shows how I was beginning to question what is right, regardless […]