There are countless people following my story and hoping I’ll write again. So here’s why I haven’t been writing. I’m one of the many victims of the United States’ third world status. I have no family to turn to for support. I’ve moved ten times in less than five years.…Continue Reading
Author: cynthiajeub
Yet Another GoFundMe
I’ve made so many fundraisers to get by over the past few years that waking up on Christmas Morning to calculate costs and fall short is exhausting. As many of you know, my man and I have been steadily working to pull ourselves out of poverty. We’re doing much better…Continue Reading
Arguing with the Void
Is science another religion, or does studying it benefit humanity? The more we learn, the less we know, and that massiveness of not-knowledge is the void. Physically, spiritually, consciously. That which we do not know, cannot observe, cannot comprehend, is outgrowing God so fast that he’s just ordinary beans compared…Continue Reading
An Infinite Task
I’m working harder than ever before, and this website doesn’t show it. The concepts I’m delving into are so intense, I wonder if I can blog about them. Here’s an excerpt: You prepared a table before me in the presence of my enemies. Then we broke bread together, and they…Continue Reading
Terra’s Temple
She mounts the steps to her temple, minding carefully the cracks in the ancient stone. Centuries ago the pillars crumbled and the roof fell. Now her stride is uneven, but she still walks with the pride of a goddess. The language is lost, her pride would never have connoted a…Continue Reading
7-Year Cycles and Time Perception
Re-uploaded 7/22/2018 as part of the Archive Restoration Project. This past weekend, my partner and I met with a Crone (pagan term of respect for wise women who’ve moved beyond the Maiden and Mother phases of the Goddess self) who was uninterested in being respected for her age. She told…Continue Reading
Birthday Post 4: Being 23 and a Half
This summer, I didn’t write on my 23rd birthday. I was working in the wilderness and a friend and coworker insisted that I take as much of a break as possible. I slept under the Colorado stars and read sections of a high fantasy novel, and the camp coordinators slipped…Continue Reading
The God Question
This post was originally published in January 2016. It was re-uploaded in October 2018 as part of the archive restoration project. My follow-up post on the subject is posted here. I read a sentence a few years ago that changed my life. It was in Barbara Ehrenreich’s book Living with…Continue Reading
When Parents Idealize Themselves
This is a repost from my restored archives. It was re-uploaded June 16, 2018. “I don’t think they mean to be abusive, though.” I hear those words at least once a week. People come to me with their stories, and I point out patterns of abuse, and they rush to…Continue Reading
The Legend of the Snow Fairies
6/18/18: I wrote this story in 2013, and posted it here on the blog in 2015. I don’t write much fiction, but this story plopped itself in my lap and demanded to be written. This is part of my archive restoration project. —————————————————————- Yes, child. Of course it’s alright to…Continue Reading