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False Fame

  • Posted August 10, 2021
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The one episode of reality TV that featured my family was a much smaller thing than we thought. Shared delusions are central to relationships with abusers, and the chance to soak up the spotlight was no exception for my parents. The show itself was embarrassingly bad – the production quality…Continue Reading

Homeschooling as Indoctrination

  • Posted June 15, 2021
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The prevailing myth surrounding homeschooling is that it is a superior form of education. The problem is that homeschooling is such a broad and vague categorization. A wide variety of experiences exist. Furthermore, it is difficult to objectively judge one’s own quality of education. I know because when I first…Continue Reading

I’m not saying religion sucks, but it hurt me, okay

  • Posted September 23, 2020
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Disclaimer: this is not an attack on religion or religious people for being religious. It’s just my thoughts about MY former faith and how I interpreted it then and now. Seven billion lives to punishThis race will pay for their avariceThe odious destroyersLeading our lives towards exileThe fickle breed will…Continue Reading

The Devastation of Lost Faith

  • Posted November 30, 2018
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“I lay in a bed of resistance Chained to either side I really wish I could, reset, rewind Someone has clawed out my eyes I don’t know what they told you But this place is not what you think Living inside a hole, they put me underground Where they could…Continue Reading

When God Spoke to Me

  • Posted October 18, 2018October 19, 2018
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“Descartes invoked God – in this case, a literal deus ex machina – to save himself…When people run up against something inexplicable, transcendent, and, most of all, ineffable, they often call it ‘God,’ as if that were some sort of explanation.” –Barbara Ehrenreich “If you withhold information from your children…Continue Reading

Dissociative Martyr

  • Posted October 1, 2018
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Wrapped in chains Locked to a stake You only share a God Because of their power Your body The only symbol Wrists torn through Nail wounds to hang from You only share a God Because of their power Your body The only symbol Children stolen Children murdered Children tortured This…Continue Reading

Cultivating Intelligent Disobedience

  • Posted September 19, 2018September 19, 2018
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“Loyal dogs, unfailing tool They do what they have been trained to With the eidolons, the minds are full The evil ghosts of old The evil ghosts of old Insanity turns back at last As soon as their food is done And dog will raven dog The claws crush bones,…Continue Reading

Surrendering to Science

  • Posted September 13, 2018
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My faith in God was not lost in a day. It took many years of questioning, and it all started with competitive Apologetics speaking when I was a teenager. Later my journey included many friends made and lost who helped me learn about science, or who gave me the same…Continue Reading

What Happened

  • Posted September 3, 2018September 1, 2018
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Content warnings: gaslighting, child abuse, mental illness, suicide, eating disorders, poverty Now is as good a time as any to explain why exactly my blog was so choppy over the past four years. I don’t trust people like I used to. I don’t believe the world is full of sunshine…Continue Reading

Podcast Transcript: The Deleted Confession

  • Posted August 26, 2018May 8, 2019
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Updated 5/6/2019: Below is a commentary I wrote in August 2018 about the events leading up to my family’s first response to my blog posts in 2014, a podcast. My parents claim that they never gave any kind of response until March of 2019. The podcast was re-uploaded to YouTube,…Continue Reading

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