Writing is a real fight. I’ve been at it for nearly five hours, and I’m starting again with nothing. The blog as a medium is one that I was introduced to through my dad, who wanted to put every details of our family’s life onto his blog for many years…Continue Reading
Category: Personal reflections
Everything (Sucks)
How do I sit still while the planet is dying?The bees are deadThe big boss is up in his towerMy face is redYelling, but there’s soundproof glass around himHe’s counting all the mountains of money around himHow would you feel if you got cheated out ofGrowing up?You’re born into a…Continue Reading
The Logistics of Staying Housed
Every month, I get one paycheck for my creative work through Patreon. I write 6 or 7 days a week, usually about 500-2,000 words per day. This has been my habit for over a decade. I have written several books, none of which I found worth pitching to agents or…Continue Reading
Birthday Post 6
It feels incredibly selfish of me to break the silence on my birthday. It just seems like a neutral time to talk about myself, I guess. There’s so much that deserves attention. I am overwhelmed by how much there is to write. Specific essays form lengthy outlines across dozens of…Continue Reading
Identity Beyond Memoir
It’s already June, and I feel like I’m still recovering from March. Countless more important things are going on than my personal family drama, so instead of writing about it, I want to write about what it’s been like to go beyond it and establish a personal identity. It has…Continue Reading
Art Worth Making
“Don’t use your memoir to air old grievances and to settle old scores; get rid of that anger somewhere else. The memoirs that we do remember from the 1990s are the ones that were written with love and forgiveness…although the childhoods they describe were painful, the writers are as hard…Continue Reading
Living with Existential Depression
People have been asking how I’m doing, and I answer that it’s all the same as it was months ago. I’m still fighting the monster of depression, I’m still trying to find meds that work for me, I’m still struggling to find my way back to my art. There’s not…Continue Reading
Winter Freeze
“When people are compulsively and constantly pulled back into the past, to the last time they felt intense involvement and deep emotions, they suffer from a failure of the imagination, a loss of the mental flexibility. Without imagination there is no hope, no chance to envision a better future, no…Continue Reading
The Devastation of Lost Faith
“I lay in a bed of resistance Chained to either side I really wish I could, reset, rewind Someone has clawed out my eyes I don’t know what they told you But this place is not what you think Living inside a hole, they put me underground Where they could…Continue Reading
Only Human
“Enjoy the pain, it’s yours for a while, girl Don’t run away, your fear, you’re getting older We are relying on you and your emotion And as you go, promise of being bright – Where did you go, my dear, don’t slip away now It’s going slow, unclear, but you’re…Continue Reading